There are two types of people in this world: Insecure people & Non-insecure people. I classify myself as an insecure person. I have many flaws that I'm dying to fix, but the thing is, I can't. These flaws are what make me, me. But sometimes I don't want to be me, I want to be the smart one, the funny one, the athletic one, the pretty one, but I'm not. I'm just plain me.
If I were given the chance to change three things about myself, I'd first change how I act socially. When it comes to meeting new people I become as awkward as one can be. I completely forget how to make conversation & become abnormally shy. I would change this about myself because I believe that it really holds me back from showing people what I really am like underneath my socially awkward layer.
The second thing I would change about myself if given the chance would be my non-athleticism. Since I was a kid sports was never my thing. I've tried learning from every possible way but it would never work out. All my friends have at least one sport that they shine in but I've got none, I really just want to change this to satisfy my desire to always fit in.
The last thing I would change about myself is my size. Almost everyone I've ever met in my entire life has pointed out that I am extremely thin for my age. Some people even point this out to me daily! It frustrates me so much! Do they really think I don't notice this everyday! That I don't hate the fact that clothing I've bought in elementary school fits me to this day? Some even try telling me that I starve myself! Excuse me for thinking that you don't know my eating habits! I would gladly change this about myself because its pointed out to me so often that I basically resent my size.
These things are qualities about myself that I would want to change in a heartbeat, but I won't. These things are what make me the unique person I am today and no matter how much I say I hate them from time to time, I would never get rid of them. I'm me. Socially awkward, non-athletic, extremely thin, me. And I wouldn't change it for the world.
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